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We both work up feeling like shit again. I barley had any sleep last night, Ned and I both woke up with a sore throat and feeling all groggy and achy.

We went to the Doctor, it feels like this mild flue feeling keeps coming back every time we are feeling stressed or having a lot of work.

We have a huge shoot over the weekend, and an important meeting tomorrow. The Doctor told us to gargle salt water and gave us an antibiotic prescription in case we get a fever.

We talked about it on the way back home and decided to take the antibiotic anyway. Cause we are both feeling sick too much lately. I don't know why, but caving in and taking those pills makes me feel sort of rotten about  myself, like I'm too weak to beat a flue on my own. I know it's the right thing to do though.

I fall asleep when we got back and had a 5 hours nap. I'm still tired, and not feeling as well as I want, but I'm glad I'm taking care of this. Ned's nose keeps bleeding today, from the heat and the snot.

The doctor we saw today asked me if I want to see a dermatologist about my skin, he said - you scratch it and you might end up having some scars, which actually I do already have.

He gave me the number of a dermatologist and talked about some antibiotic that you need to take for a while to get the skin better, whatever.

It bother me that it's not as smooth and nice and look all normal and such. However, I'm trying to think of how wrecking my inside with months of antibiotic just to look pretty is something a doctor should recommend me to do.

Damn superficial society.

Maybe it just hurt my feelings that he mentioned it and now I'm looking for reasons to dislike him.